An Overwhelming Sense of Self Doubt

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So I have lacked motivation, inspiration and everything in-between, and I do not know why. My blog this blog was my one true sense of joy I would journal my thoughts, and through that everything inspired me, everything I saw had a story worth telling and I was going to tell it.

I am sure like all good storytellers, writers and content creators the creative pool runs dry at some point, and we need to go back to the drawing board, the core of what started this creative combustion in the first place.

I have been trying to write a post for a while and stopped mid-sentence because I thought it was not good enough, or my thought process meandered off track and lead me to nothingness.

The signs that something is wrong

  1. I became (still am) irritable and projecting my frustrations onto the wrong people (FYI my family)
  2. All I want to do is curl up in bed and watch series
  3. When I am out all I can think of is going home
  4. Nothing excites me anymore

I did not choose to feel this way, and maybe I just need to get away from the moment for a bit and come back with a clear mind.

I want to be my inspired, excited self again I miss that person so much. (Come back come back she cries to herself)

I should be excited, but I am more overwhelmed by the possibilities that lie ahead. I have decided to take a very big risk, and I know the unknown is scary and maybe me feeling like this is me second guessing myself and looking at all the red tape hindering my progression right now is overwhelming. I do know patience is key, and everything will get done in due time.

I read this the other day; “to get to what you love you must first be patient with what you hate” It is true so maybe me feeling this way is just me trying to be patient with what I hate.

Then I watched this Jacksgap video below and it made me feel a tad bit normal again, everyone feels  overwhelmed and lacks motivation from time to time. (Note to self do not let this take over who I am.)

I have changed and the things I once found exciting no longer excite me, this can only mean one thing time to find out new exciting things  that will bring me back to life!

Do you get overwhelmed by life and lack motivation at times?  Let me know what you do to beat the funk.

Peace love and Happiness

Cherry ♥

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Filming and Dancing on the Beach

Hope you all had a relaxing Easter Weekend. I had a great Easter weekend spent in Church with friends and Family eating sleeping and watching way too many episodes of all my series just what I needed.

Friday Courteney, mom and I took a drive to Seapoint an area along our Atlantic coast. We shot  Courteney’s dance video freestyle we been meaning to do it for so long, and I got to tick another thing off my 5 Random things list for this month.

The Video turned out great. The song used was Tori Kelly Paper Hearts, been loving that song ever since I heard it about a month ago.

Courteney and I came up with the concept ourselves. Hope you enjoy it. Please let us know what you think.

Have a great short week. everyone!!!

Peace love and Happiness

Cherry ♥

Running against the Imaginary Clock!

 

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Have you ever felt like you were running a race but you not really sure where the finish line is… I kind of feel like that has been my life lately a constant go and even when I do take a water break it doesn’t really feel like a break. Welcome to the crazy world of me, (please let me know if I am not alone in this race.)

I realised something over the weekend that most likely was quite apparent but to me the penny had not yet dropped until I had this realisation the other day.

My rat race lifestyle constantly on the go finding the next best thing that will keep me inspired or give that high for awhile seems like its a race against time. I am deadly afraid of the inevitable getting older scenario….. (30) I feel like the stereotypical tales of generations past haunt me. The ideological way of thinking that these things must be done in your 20’s and when you 30 it is time to buck up, no more frivolous misdemeanour’s and spontaneous decisions to jump ship and do something strange will be acceptable anymore.

I hate the system and believe my generation is rebelling against it. Do not get me wrong it works for some. I am a carefree spirit trapped by what if’s so how care free I am really. I have learnt to let go of the negative and embrace the positive that has brought me great joy. I have learnt to focus on the person and not the noise that may surround them. I have learnt that friends will come and go and that we should not hold on too tightly. I have learnt life happens you can be on top of the world one second and lower than low the next.

I have learnt to let go and enjoy the ride and I have learned what real meaningful conversations are. I have seen the sun rise and the sunset all in one day. I have had the privilege to travel near and far and meet interesting people along the way. I have realised sooner than later not to settle and that my wandering mind will lead me into uncharted waters. I think most importantly the main thing I am finally starting to accept is that it is ok to fail and I will most likely never have everything ever figured out.

I still wish to experience true love a love that conquers all that love you just know you know. There are so many things I still wish to discover, and I know I will in due time. I love my family but I need to be on my own. I need to learn not to compare my life’s tale with others.( remember the parable of the tortoise  and the hare) As for my wandering mind that continues to wander, I will close by saying, it’s ok not to know the end, one thing that is guaranteed is, the end for today will not be the same tomorrow.

While trolling Youtube I found this young man, I love spoken word and I feel like he read my mind with this piece hope you enjoy it!

Peace love and Happiness

Cherry ♥

 

 

Hard Work!

Life is all about hard work, through school University, and the real world nothing is ever easy unless you a born a Kardashion lol (even they work hard for their money.) My point is there is no easy way to the top. The difference is you can be a slave to pay bills or you can work hard to make a difference in your life.

Ever since I returned from my trip at the beginning of this year I felt a burning fire inside me, a thirst for more, see more do more and live more. The world is truly my oyster. I am not a trust fund kid, and in order to reach my goals in life I need to work hard and knowing all the effort I am putting in will make reaping the rewards all more worth it.

Starting my own Second hand clothing sale was hard work and this weekend past we hosted the sale. The weeks leading up to the sale was hard work sorting and pricing and arranging everything. With the help of family and friends we managed to make it work. Our turn out was slow and very grateful to all those who came out and supported.

At one point self doubt crept in and I was like why did I go through all this trouble for a handful of sales, and I then had to remind myself that those late nights will be worth it in the end. That I will rather work hard for something then expect a handout.

So we still have so much left to sell, and we hoping to take Shop my Closet to some Markets soon so we can sell the remaining stock.
Lesson learned; handwork is inevitable and even if you start slow don’t give up no matter what you do!

Hope you all had great weekends and here are some snaps from Shop My Closet!

Peace love and Happiness

Cherry ♥

 

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Look Post -Shop My Closet Sneak Peak inside!

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With exactly two days to go I have been working furiously trying to sort out the closet, pricing, and organising and doing the logistics for Saturday. We have some really awesome things for sale and it is starting to really feel like you will be shopping in my closet that’s the point right lol

Feeling Nostalgic as I am being rather ruthless and letting go of everything I have not worn in the last year or so. I highly recommend if you in the Cape Town area to come through early sale starts at 9am and we will be open till 2pm. All items are priced between R10 -R150.
Believe me when I say, you can pick up some awesome things, that have not been worn or has been worn once or twice for a scupcakesandlemonadeadbuttonteal. Most of the shoe sizes range between 4-6 most of the clothing between 8-12 (32-36). There are also Handbags, belts, accessories and some odd extra gems like books up for sale too.

Something extra we decided to do too, is sell homemade Lemonade, and Cupcakes all the proceeds of this will be donated to charity, so while shopping our closets you can give back too. #Cupcakesandlemonadeforcharity

Please click here to stay up to date and feel free to comment below if you would like to know anything!

Hope you enjoy the sneak peak below!

Peace love and Happiness

Cherry ♥

Come to my sale me doing some sorting!!

Come to my sale!! Just me doing some sorting!!

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Colour – The Greatest Love Story Ever Told

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I am not one to talk openly about religion as it is something I am still figuring out myself but I am not ashamed to openly declare that I am a believer in God!

This past weekend I went to a women’s conference hosted by Hillsong Church called Colour.( an awesome gift from a dear friend) I have been going for the last three years with my best friend and this year I got my mom to join which was awesome.

The aim of the gathering is to inspire women and share the word of God and give practical ways in which we can help change the world and see what the global sisterhood of women across the world is doing. I am women of Christ and have been all my life as a child I was forced to go to church even when I did not know what was going on but only about 3 years ago I truly found out what being Christ follower is. (I will share that story another time.)

It’s been amazing to see how God has worked in this Church and how the vision of the Colour Conference has just grown. In it’s four years of existence in Cape Town it has grown to over 5000 women this year and to see how it has impacted women across the world is extraordinary.

I remember in 2012 when I went to my first gathering I was so broken, resigned from job had no clue where or what I was going to do. I did know I had to be at that conference to be encouraged to see how the world is responding to God; it blew me away and my love for helping and inspiring just grew inside me. That year I put my trust in God that he would lead me to the right place; it was tough, but I believe he did. CherryHearts was born that year in my heart I had no idea what it would become, but I had always dreamt of starting something of my own.

Then in 2013 at Colour I had found a job by this point, was happier in my work life and was pretty content with life as a whole. CherryHearts became a reality in the form of this Blog. I see life differently and finally had a platform to be creative and express myself and find out new things about myself. I prayed that year to be involved locally, and God blessed me with Out of Africa dance Acadamy a NPO  where Courteney dances with the vision to take kids away from crime and drugs and give them positive outlet. I  have been doing the social media and PR for the last year and helping with there upcoming show called Dreams into-Reality

Then this year 2014, ever since I came back from Thailand I have had this burst of wanderlust, to see more, do more, experience more, and I feel like I am running against the clock and that if I do not do it now it will never be done.
At conference this weekend we heard from Lisa Bavere, Holly Wagner and Bobby Houston. Three amazing women who have touched my life so much. I always felt intimidated by the Bible, but I have made a vow to myself to read it for myself.

Friday night Bobby spoke about love is on the way in the sense that God is in your past, present and future. Through listening to all the talks on Saturday. Hearing all the good stories coming from ordinary women doing extraordinary things and making a big impact in the global sphere, is so inspiring and amazing. I got this sense that I need to leave to get a global perspective so I can come back to Cape Town for local impact. No matter where we are in the world we all fighting for the same fight.

The greatest Love story ever told is no secret. It is that God sacrificed his only son for us so we can live free from sin and be surrounded by grace, love, hope, freedom and peace. So no matter where you at right now just remember that there is a God that truly loves you!

If you have never been I highly recommend you come to the next gathering, the Colour Conference is hosted in Sydney Australia, Cape Town, London and Keive. (click  here for more information)

Check out the 2015 promo video below.

Peace love and Happiness

Cherry ♥

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End of Summer Music Festival Vibes- KDAY

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If I can share one valuable bit of information with you when it comes to Cape Town it would be expect unpredictable weather. I love summer so much and it is with great sadness that it is now the end of my happy season and the start of the wet rainy one. Atleast over the weekend we got blessed with sunshine, blue skies and a South African Musical festival to mark the end of the season.

I went to KDAY( a musical event hosted by a local radio station called KFM) an awesome family event where over 17 South African Artists performed. The event was hosted at Sandringham farm in Stellenbosch about 45 minutes out of Cape Town.

I was not a fan of the layout and there was so many people I honestly think the entire Cape Town came out to enjoy the last bit of Sunshine. None the less I had a fun time with my friends and family and enjoyed the good sounds of Goodluck, DannyK, Micasa, Prime Circle,Locnville and the Parlatones just to mention a few of the performers.

Sadly towards the end of the evening it started to rain so from sunny to dancing in the rain it was still a great day to say our goodbyes to the great summer and welcome in the winter months.

Friends, family, live music, good food and great laughs the best way to end the happy season. Hope you all ready for winter and for those heading into spring and summer I am so jealous. Think I need to find a work option of moving to a summer country in our winter so I can have summer all year round lol.

Peace love and Happiness

Cherry ♥

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