For the longest time, I was afraid to completely open myself up to even the possibility of loving someone in a romantic way allowing my past to scar my future and that’s not ok.
It had taken me two failed long term relationships I had at a very young age and six years to leave me, so heartbroken I was afraid to love again actually! I mean love in all ways 100% love myself and 100% love all the relationships I have made old and new from friendships to strangers or the potential love interest.
There is a part of me so locked up I don’t even have the key to unlocking it.Until I went on this journey of self-discovery.
I had to push myself to be more uncomfortable with my surroundings to fully understand the magnitude of what I am capable of doing; I had to push myself to be vulnerable and be ok before I could truly be ok with my flaws and accept that, that makes me who I am!
Today I love myself and believe in me so much so that I bring happiness to others because I am happy with who I am becoming!
I feel as if that section of my heart is slowly unlocking itself. I still have lots of work to do, but I am starting now to love freely openly and kindly because I allowed myself to be me 100% me and I am not afraid anymore (ok I am a little scared but I guess doing something that scares you is what life is about right.)
There was one unique individual soul who recently came into my life and gave me a glimpse of hope that not all people want to rob me of my happiness and steal my love but add to it and that made me believe in love again! My deep friendships and connections with people changed right away I felt this unleash of love for everything as if the floodgates has just been opened.
I have that I can’t eat can’t sleep kinda feeling for I am in love with life, and you may not know it, but I thank you, for you are the one that made me love again!
People definitely come into your life for a reason some stay forever and some come to show you things you never knew existed or just to make you a better version of yourself.
I haven’t had the urge to write recently until last week when I shared how my life abroad changed me so I hope this writing phase comes back for good again! I hope you all reading this are enjoying my deeper life journey more so than my travel journey which will be returning soon. I have been to so many beautiful places since I have entered South Korea so please stay tuned for that.
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Peace love & Happiness