The One that made me Believe in Love Again!

For the longest time, I was afraid to completely open myself up to even the possibility of loving someone in a romantic way allowing my past to scar my future and that’s not ok.

It had taken me two failed long term relationships I had at a very young age and six years to leave me, so heartbroken I was afraid to love again actually! I mean love in all ways 100% love myself and 100% love all the relationships I have made old and new from friendships to strangers or the potential love interest.

There is a part of me so locked up I don’t  even have the key to unlocking it.Until I went on this journey of self-discovery.

I had to push myself to be more uncomfortable with my surroundings to fully understand the magnitude of what I am capable of doing; I had to push myself to be vulnerable and be ok before I could truly be ok with my flaws and accept that, that makes me who I am!

Today I love myself and believe in me so much so that I bring happiness to others because I am happy with who I am becoming!

I feel as if that section of my heart is slowly unlocking itself. I still have lots of work to do, but I am starting now to love freely openly and kindly because I allowed myself to be me 100% me and I am not afraid anymore (ok I am a little scared but I guess doing something that scares you is what life is about right.)

There was one unique individual soul who recently came into my life and gave me a glimpse of hope that not all people want to rob me of my happiness and steal my love but add to it and that made me believe in love again! My deep friendships and connections with people changed right away I felt this unleash of love for everything as if the floodgates has just been opened.

I have that I can’t eat can’t sleep kinda feeling for I am in love with life, and you may not know it, but I thank you, for you are the one that made me love again!

People  definitely come into your life for a reason some stay forever and some come to show you things you never knew existed or just to  make you a better version of yourself.

I haven’t had the urge to write recently until last week when I shared how my life abroad changed me so I  hope this writing phase comes back for good again! I hope you all reading this are enjoying my  deeper life journey more so than my travel journey which will be returning soon. I have been to so many beautiful places since I  have entered South Korea so please stay tuned for that.

Check out my Instagram  Thals01 and my Snapchat Iamthalea to see more regular daily updates if that’s your thing. Lastly thanks for those that read follow and comment it makes my day!!

Peace love & Happiness

Cherry ♥

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How My life has changed after two years living abroad!

When I decided to leave home about two years ago, it wasn’t an easy decision but one I am euphoric I made. I don’t think I would have experienced or become the person I am today if I had not have left home in September of 2014.

Now one year out of China and 5 Asian countries explored I am extremely grateful and do not regret my decision for one minute.

I remember the person I was two years ago heading into the unknown afraid but masking it by putting on a brave face.Heaven forbid I let my parents and family see my fear as I head into China a country we do not know very much about other than the fact it is extremely far from anything we are used to. Fast forward one year, I learnt to teach, I grew in confidence with being around children.( something I was not confident in), I managed to communicate in a new language, travel around China speak to many different people and make amazing real relationships with the best people.

As eager as I was to leave and try something new I was not prepared to leave a place so unfamiliar but an area that had served as home and the friends I had made my new family. Filled with tears of sadness but tears of excitement it was a strange time.

China was just stepping stone in my bigger picture I had no idea how China had prepared me for life outside of China until that day I packed up all my belongings and left for the greater unknown.

China taught me never to give up especially when the going gets tough.

China taught me to be confident.

China taught me to be strong.

China taught me to be brave.

China taught me to stop hiding.

China taught me patience.

Slowly as the year manifested and did its thing full of ups and downs I left with my head held high and the confidence knowing I hacked China for a year one of the hardest places to live.

I remember leaving for Hong Kong feeling like I was superwomen like I had some magical power. As if I was in prison for a year and finally saw the sunshine (ok not that dramatic but you catch my drift) I was sole alone just me against the world needing to figure out how I was going to travel around Asia for three months, and I wasn’t afraid of anything. I would not be able to do this if it wasn’t for the lessons I had learnt in China.

I ventured through Asia for three months came out with a few scrapes and bruises a few hospital visits but alive living the best version of myself. I had appreciated everything the beauty I saw was indescribable the joy I felt was magical. The saying hard work pays off became real I was so proud of myself for reaching this point. The best part was that my true happiness I was feeling on the inside showed on my face in my confidence to strike up conversations with random people. The law of attraction to bring the best people into my life at the right time made me believe more and more in the mighty God I serve.

I believe now more than ever that God has a plan for my life I don’t know my end destination, but I love that this journey has brought me to now South Korea. It wasn’t an easy task after having the beast journey and going home seeing all my loved ones. Getting to eat everything I missed and do all the things I told all the travellers I met to do when they visit Cape Town. It was good. The high I was on quickly subsided and felt depressed again. 28 with no job living at home with mum and dad it did depress me but also it motivated me not to give up on the dream I just lived.

It has lead me here to this very apartment where I live by myself still living an incredible adventure all while giving back to the kids I teach every day.

China has prepared me so much for South Korea I am a confident teacher, teaching and talking to kids is easy for me now and the job is easy compared to how I struggled back in China. Travelling around a country where I don’t speak the language is a piece of cake it is still frustrating from time to time, but I am so used to it it’s normal for me now. I am just more confident in myself and the people I have met have been special blessings in my life.

I am only 3months in, and I feel I have done and seen so much. Not for one second have I doubted my decision to be exactly where I am.  I thank you, China for leading me here and I thank God for keeping me safe and showing me I am on the right path.

Let’s see where this journey shall take me!!

Peace love & Happiness

Cherry ♥

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